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Hi , Everyone it’s me. I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting back on my life. I’ve never tried to hide the fact that before my marriage to Derikk I was a poor single mom. I never hid the fact at times in my life I was quite promiscuous. At times in my life I was desperatly out of control , an alcoholic and addicted to dilaudid , and morphine. I looked for love in so many wrong ways. One night a man so happened to hear me crying and kinda praying out loud to just let me die. I thought Richard would be better off with his Grandmother than with me. After all I had already corrupted his life , but… Read more

So this time back is a very good time. we had Mindy's two girls for 3 months. Wow how grown they are. I will try to do better now, but still I don't have a lot of free time. so til next time mrs. x… Read more

Hi Everyone it's me. I've been gone for some time, I'll be back in a mish mash way. #We have so much to do here in the states, plus in Germany, und nedrland lol...oups holland jedenfalls bin ich mude so tschuss for now bye bye, Anna… Read more

Hi Everyone, it's me I wish I had a great answer for why I haven't logged in lately. I don't know why but the last few weeks i just start crying. I think of Derikk , how unfair it was to lose him like I did. I went home to Germany rekindled some old friendships, one who wanted more than a friend. I politely told him no. Bry and I talked every night when we could even if it was like Anna I'm really really busy in the ER. I understand this , but still it hurts and frustrates me. James and the girls want Christmas here. Mindy wants us all to load the jeeps and… Read more

Hi , Everyone it’s me. Sorry for coming back from vacation and hardly ever being on. Everything is good. Mindy is making ( guarded ) rehabs baby steps they say and I’ll take them. Between shopping and helping bake cookies at school and volunteering for the “ Angels Kitchen “ I ‘m pretty tired when I get home. James has been fantastic fitting in time for Sunday night massages. Bryant Has been an angel to me. I think getting away helped out us a lot. Laffs plus I’ve learned to crochet. So between baking cookies and volunteering at the Kitchen , I’ve been pretty… Read more

Hi everyone, it's me I apologize for not being online a lot. This year Bryant and his brother a two sisters are coming for thanksgiving so I've been really super busy getting everything right. Plus we picked up Mindy for a shcool play. She had to back but but I really think she's at a point mentally she's okay, and the doctors say she could come home by the new year. so everyone keep their fingers crossed for her. I'm really happy because my mind is so busy planning and shopping. I have almost everything I need, I'll go over my list again and pick up last minu… Read more

Hi everyone, it's me I am so, so tired so I just wanted to post that I flew in at the worse time. High winds and crazy storms so i stayed over in Chicago and made it home a few hours ago, I misses you all so much, anna… Read more

Hi Everyone it’s me, Many of you already know that I’m going away. I think first I’ll travel to Nashville ( Regina ) for a week or so. Then I’ll fly to Germany from Nashville through Chicago. Wow that sounds all complicated. This time though I take my laptop along, plus my kindle for reading or whatever. I will also make a week-end stop in the Netherlands to visit Derikk’s Grave and his family. Plus of course check on the farm there. So for the most part I am already packed except for my overnight bag and such things. I love the idea of shopping again in Eur… Read more

Hi Everyone, it’s me I’m sorry for not being on a lot lately. I’ve had some personal issues to deal with ( all is fine now ) I’ve been on this site for 5 years, that’s hard to believe. I’ve made a lot of very good friends. I’ve had messages with some immature, c***dish men. I’m very open about who I am, what I like and don’t like. Some of my friends here know deep secrets that I have not shared with others. If the shoe does not fit, please don’t wear it. One of the main reasons I’ve not logged in much is because of one certain man. I had a very uneasy feelin… Read more

Hi everyone, it's me Okies why is it that a lot of men on here can not carry on a conversation. I get so many messages that are like , one or two words. Do they expect for us women to carry the whole conversation? I mean start me up and you might be sorry because i can be quite the chatter. I do get frustrated though when i get a message of one word, so I respond in kind hoping they get the message, nope, zoom right over their head, laffs. Men ask me what I like in a man. I like a man who can carry on a conversation and in that conversation make me laff, m… Read more

Hi everyone it's me, Whoever the c***dish immature man was who so maliciously gave my fotos thumbs down, you could have made a comment as to why, but of course that would have exposed you for the mean person you are. So sorry everyone who liked the fotos , but every time i opened that gallery i knew he did it on purpose and yup i'm supposed to ignore that kinda stuff, but hey, it hurts my feelings and right now i just don't feel like dealing with negativity... Anna… Read more

Hi everyone it's me, I lost my old yahoo messenger when i bought this new computer ( still not impressed with windows 8 ) and now they want me to d'load windows 10. I think not. Anyway my new Yahoo Messenger ID. is annavandenberg39. I think you don't have to put @yahoo.com at the end if you do then just do that, laffs. I lost all my old contacts which really stinks, so please just message me and or send me a request but remember say you're from xhamster...so that's it for now, anna… Read more

Hi everyone, it's me I have to admit i'm really disappointed in the lack of comments on the smaller gallery. I have decided, no gallery is better than the disappointment of no or 1 or 2 sporadic comments. For those of you who took the time to comment I truly thank you, anna… Read more

Hi, everyone, it's me. i think from my fotos it's pretty easy to discern that i really love giving blowjobs. my first time was a disaster with the guy holding my head on him and no warning just powie filled my mouth. later i discovered with patient men it's like fantastic and makes me feel, um powerful?, dunno that's probably the wrong word, but yes it makes me feel really good that i can get him hard and hear all of his moans and sighs. it goes straight to my pussy and i get soaking wet. like i was a teen when i really got into giving them. it saved my virginity for t… Read more

Hi everyone it's me, I don't know why i even log in anymore. i mean, i answer messages, get sporadic replies back, then poof, no more messages, if you don't want to chat then just don't bother messaging me, if you're to busy watching clips, then be polite enough to tell me, if i bore you, again just let me know, you don't have to chat to me, but then why kontact me?, anna… Read more

Cuckold: I’ve been thinking about this since a friend started talking to me about it ( online Xhamster friend ) . I told him for me to do this kinda thing. I would have to know that my husband loves me more than life itself. The same for me. I can’t just have sex with a man to have sex, no that doesn’t work for me. I need to know that I can look up to my husband and my husband is my rock and our marriage is sacred. Would I do this kind of thing for my man. The answer would have to be yes. Not a simple yes though. This yes would come with a lot of honest open communication. I… Read more

Hi everyone it's me There is no quick way to answer all of my messages. i love and miss so many of you. so this is my fastest way to let you all know i miss each of you. i've been kinda having panic attacks again, still alcohol free though and that's great news, i still smoke a blunt once in awhile, i'm back and i'm really going to start getting back online at least once a day, your friend, i hope, anna… Read more

Hi everyone it’s me Happy New Year to all of my xhamster friends. I have hopes that in this year Mindy will make a lot of progress and she will be happy and smiling again. To anyone of you who are going through something just look around you and you will see others going through worse. It helps to put our lives in perspective and helps us realize we are never alone or really as bad as others are. They’re people totally alone they don’t have computers even. They can’t do simple things like we can like signing on and saying hi to our friends in our little hamster… Read more

Hi everyone. It’s me. My stupid computer just died, it had a heart attack, laffs. So finally, ( YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY ) I have new one, and everything is working again. So, first of all I apologize again, laffs, for not being online like I wanted to be. Mindy is really depressed and well I’ve been spending a lot of time trying to get her up and out, but this stinking weather is against us. Cold misty rain, then big fat sloppy wet…mmm…snowflakes, laffs. You piggies, hehehe. Okay you don’t spell piggies, piggies? Nope, laffs. English is a goofy language, anywho…I’m just happy to… Read more

Hi Everyone, it’s me I hope some of you aren’t that frustrated with me right now. I know I sign on then hop offline a lot lately. I’m really sorry for that. I have an Intercom here for Mindy to “ buzz me “ so sometimes I have to sign out and go help her. Other times the girls come rushing into the room all smiles to tell me about their day or ask me to go “ nakey “ with them in the tub. Laffs at the “ nakey “ thing. I always tell them you have to go “ nakey to take a bath. They hang on my every word. I love it, but yeah, it does effect my time online. Please… Read more