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My cravings are intense. I crave cum. I crave the feel, the taste, the sense of ownership taking a man's cum in me. I crave discipline. I crave the rules, the requirements, and the whims of a man. I crave to be dressed as I'm told, the perfect girl for my superior.… Read more

What I want is a daddy with patience and desire. I want a passionate person who loves the thrill of controlling his property. I want to adhere to discipline, doing what I'm told and having a daddy who finds it amazing that they own someone so completely. I want to give up bits of my independence one at a time until I adhere to their rules and regulations. I am theirs. And the pleasure they get comes from knowing what control they have. That they've dressed me as they like. That I answer their messages and respond when told. And I'm thinking of them all the time. They are my world. I belong t… Read more

Recognizing one's place can put one on a real path to enlightenment. I have watched enough hypno and encouragement videos to understand just how much I crave cock. Those that are exceptional, I feel compelled to give incredible attention to, to really worship them with tender care and affection. I feel sincere, uninhibited desire to kneel in front of a superior male and pleasure them with every ounce of my attention and focus. Through the act of worshipping a cock, bringing a man to orgasm, I believe I can better understand my goals and dreams of feeling that thrill of knowing MY attention m… Read more

I've taken to changing the mindset. Thinking through what it means to be a girl and how to keep that in place at all times. Whether it involves wearing panties or pantyhose all the time, ensuring some feminine color is in my wardrobe, or I'm staying well groomed, all of it matters. Every choice leads toward a better sense of who I am. To feel feminine, I must dress feminine in some way at all times. Slipping doesn't mean losing progress so much as feeling 'off'. Wrong. Trapped in the wrong body. The reminder of who I am can be felt every time I shift or move, each moment my legs touch and the… Read more

This doesn't happen all the time, but more recently as I've watched sissy videos, I've found myself utterly captivated by humiliating acts. Facials...even some of the dirtier things have really got me thinking about the impact of those. How emasculating they can be. I see the value and understand why it's so desirable. I have fallen down the rabbit hole in this regard. I think it will be extremely beneficial to do these things in the near future. Kneeling, taking that from a superior...I tremble when I think about it. It feels as if that's meant to be. And I look forward to experiencing that… Read more

I always felt a little off about my masculinity. I dabbled in crossdressing as a young adult and loved it, but didn't commit until later. When I did, I felt like myself. More than ever before. It was like coming home. I felt like a stranger until I started wearing the right clothing. And the more I did it, the less of a man I felt and more feminine. At my core. And it has only grown stronger. My submissive side may be a result of that but it has been with me always. I've always followed the lead of others. And I find myself quick to agree, to be commanded. I have always felt it was the prope… Read more

Learning to appreciate oneself can be challenging no matter what we're trying to do. This can be especially hard for a person in transition. Whether trying to be a sissy or altering gender, identity is going to be difficult to appreciate or even enjoy depending on standards. Many people have unrealistic standards or expectations, for others and for ourselves. And it doesn't help when people online have no qualms about wrecking someone with outlandish comments they'd never say to someone's face. So when the intention is to become more of something (feminine, masculine, alluring, etc.) the stan… Read more

These concepts are key to thriving. This goes beyond sexuality, into what we consume, read, watch, and learn. But when it comes to sensuality, providing and receiving, there's something spiritual about the whole experience. Straight friction grants a moment's excitement. Passion, taking one's time, the connection between two people, takes it to another level. One that matters far more than a quick grab and tug. One can find fulfillment in many things. Whether it's providing pleasure to a lover, taking a task they don't appreciate, or learning their desires so they can be met, selflessness ca… Read more

Some days, it's challenging. To push through the 'ease' of dressing incorrectly. Wearing panties every day, no exception. Making sure that there's a constant reminder of who I really am. It's not about the simplicity. In fact, I appreciate that dressing requires effort. Because throughout the time of doing so, I'm thinking about being a girl the whole time. I'm reminded of it every time I shift and feel nylons against my legs, every time I'm constrained by the panties, every moment that I KNOW I am living in my proper path. But it can be a big challenge. And the discipline is sometimes not al… Read more

One of the things that I love most about this path is the lingerie. I started with stockings and pantyhose. I've progressed to vintage stockings and garter belts. The feeling of those on freshly shaved legs is nothing short of magical. It's so stunning and drives home the notion of feminism. I don't remotely feel masculine when I wear those, no matter what's on top. And I feel like I understand myself better. My role. My position. And how I feel about others, how I interact, submissively, quieter...I feel sexier too. It's incredible.… Read more

I learned a great deal this week about measurements, translating from women's sizes to men's. I know most of my sizes now, so I've been able to get properly fitting garments. Of course, women suffer from an outrageous variation in what their sizes mean. There's been some trial and error as a result. But I'm learning the steps. The next thing I need to really focus on is bras. I'm sure I can figure this out soon though. I've got the measuring tape and the drive. So here we go!… Read more

Spreading the legs, opening oneself up to a superior, feeling their weight while giving everything...that's the sort of passionate sensuality that drives my desire. I want to feel that surrender and experience the passion of my lover as they pleasure themselves with my body. Because the mental aspect is just as important as the physical. KNOWING what's happening and experiencing it, fully engaging, that's the part that makes it so thrilling and so essential.… Read more

So it seemed like a good time to break through what I think a lot of people consider a taboo. I tasted my own cum. I admit, that was scary but now that I've crossed the line, I believe I can start doing it a lot more. It's time to push this threshold and make this not only a routine, but a craving.… Read more

I've been studying BJs. Straight, Sissy, Gay...the techniques are pretty amazing. I think I've got this. I am ready to start practicing :)… Read more

I've been focusing strongly, and at this point, even the tiniest excitement I used to feel for straight porn has gone away. This is an incredible development and I've been sooooooo excited by all the lovely things I've seen with sissies and men in general. This is amazing fun!… Read more

I have been studying sissy work. Videos, lit, anything I can get my hands on. I'm rapidly realizing how addictive this can be. And how much I feel like this is the right path. It's so exciting and emasculating to be drawn deeper and deeper into this world. I'm thrilled to be here.… Read more