Three Things Worry Me
Three Things Worry Me.
I have always had Female Domination fantasies. I just do. I have always liked power exchange, whether the male or female is on Top. They are different moods, and mindsets, but I can work my way into either one.
Sometimes seeing the smaller, weaker female bullied turns me off. It looks too much like Garden Variety abuse, and I saw plenty of domestic v******e in my c***dhood. When my Wife is on the bottom, she just can’t take much abuse. She is petite and very feminine. She gets enough spanking to warm the flesh, some face fucking, occasional anal, and that’s about it. So to fantasize about women being flogged or paddled hard… that isn’t for me.
So if I am going to play rough games, I must play them from the bottom.
That’s why games in our house almost always turn to female domination. She knows she can always excite me and persuade me with this kind of thing. I always go along, because I’m the one who turned our sex life kinky. I bought the cuffs. I bought the paddle and whip. I made spreader bars in the garage. And yes, when she asked for one, I bought the Strap On she wears.
I must have been horny when I picked it, because I used very poor judgment in terms of size and rigidity. Sometimes, I think that thing is going to kill me. When I am crouching next to the bed, or strapped to our metal bench, and I am being hammered with that thing at the hard, 100% deep thrusting she likes, it's destroying me. Pull back, almost all the way out, wait one half second, then punching it in deep, her hips slapping against me. Wham! ..… Wham! ..… Wham! ..… Wham! I think my heart is going to stop.
There are three things about my Home Made Dominatrix that worry me. They don’t scare me in the same way as having her sit on my stomach facing south, and dedicate 10 minutes to ball squeezing and pulling and slapping. Not like the combination paddling and hand job she likes so much. They scare me in terms of rewriting our relationship, and I like things about where they are.
1) What if she gets a Humbler? The device to isolate and squeeze a man’s balls. I worry that if she looks at Fm porn online, she will see one of those, or one of those plastic vices that crush men’s balls. I think she would absolutely love to put my balls in a vice and giggle and squeeze and keep me in agony while she is orally serviced. I get so much ball squeezing and slapping now, I don’t really want it increased an order of magnitude.
2) I fear I will orgasm from her Strap On. If you only fantasize about getting pegged, let me tell you something. It is not the Pure Pleasure as described in porn. It is an amazingly complex set of sensations and emotions. It is a mix of so many things. Each hard, deep thrust is like a punch in the guts. Like a small uppercut to very tender flesh. All the strength leaves me, and I don’t think I could even stand up when she gets going. Not exactly exhaustion or a need to sleep, but an overwhelming feeling of taxation, like I had just lifted the most weight I can lift 10 times, and now I am empty. And there is a fair amount of pleasure, as the vibrating hard rubber dildo strokes my prostate. Hot flashes. Too weak to lift my body, too much pain, too much pleasure. I have to just crouch there whimpering and panting and dripping.
Most of the men you see getting pegged in porn are kneeling or over a bench or in a harness. It’s because they are too weak to stand on their own. There is an existential reason for all the apparatus.
So what would happen if I actually drifted over the edge and had an orgasm from Her Royal Harness? She loves to fuck me with that thing. She loves the total domination of pounding me before receiving her licking and massage. If the thing she likes best suddenly starts to work more for both of us; she will want to do nothing else. I don’t think I want to give up all the other things we do, but I think she would. And she would want to extend that outside the bedroom to a casual dominance all the time. I’m already fighting that about having my balls squeezed 20 times a day.
3) Her friends probably know everything we do. Two times friends of hers have teased me about little things. At a Halloween party last year, a group of us were eating Fake Eye Balls, and her best friend said to me, “it can’t be worse than when you’re licking <name redacted> ass.” Followed by laughing. This woman is very attractive, and I’ve heard from my wife that she is very unsatisfied with her boyfriend and their sex life. Clearly they have discussed our sex life. Also, at a party at my house, when she was drunk she asked me, “are you wearing your ball pulling weights tonight?”
My wife has asked me dozens of times if I would like to have my dick sucked while I’m getting pegged. She brings it up again and again. I think the two of them have discussed having a Femdom Party with me as the victim / Lucky Winner, depending on how you look at it.
But my wife is all I can handle now. I’m getting more paddling, ball crushing, face sitting and strapon than I can really handle as it is. My wife would like to work on my balls and paddle me every day. And I don’t want to break up another couple by becoming the oral servant of another Asian Girl or two.
It sounds great until you realize how much that could change, and I’m happy where I am. If it could be a completely isolated event, divorced from The World, I would tell my wife to peg me until I pass out with my face in her friend from behind. But nothing is so isolated, and it would probably end up destroying my marriage to my Asian Dominatrix.
Just US please. And don’t show your girlfriends your strap on. I’m begging you.
I have always had Female Domination fantasies. I just do. I have always liked power exchange, whether the male or female is on Top. They are different moods, and mindsets, but I can work my way into either one.
Sometimes seeing the smaller, weaker female bullied turns me off. It looks too much like Garden Variety abuse, and I saw plenty of domestic v******e in my c***dhood. When my Wife is on the bottom, she just can’t take much abuse. She is petite and very feminine. She gets enough spanking to warm the flesh, some face fucking, occasional anal, and that’s about it. So to fantasize about women being flogged or paddled hard… that isn’t for me.
So if I am going to play rough games, I must play them from the bottom.
That’s why games in our house almost always turn to female domination. She knows she can always excite me and persuade me with this kind of thing. I always go along, because I’m the one who turned our sex life kinky. I bought the cuffs. I bought the paddle and whip. I made spreader bars in the garage. And yes, when she asked for one, I bought the Strap On she wears.
I must have been horny when I picked it, because I used very poor judgment in terms of size and rigidity. Sometimes, I think that thing is going to kill me. When I am crouching next to the bed, or strapped to our metal bench, and I am being hammered with that thing at the hard, 100% deep thrusting she likes, it's destroying me. Pull back, almost all the way out, wait one half second, then punching it in deep, her hips slapping against me. Wham! ..… Wham! ..… Wham! ..… Wham! I think my heart is going to stop.
There are three things about my Home Made Dominatrix that worry me. They don’t scare me in the same way as having her sit on my stomach facing south, and dedicate 10 minutes to ball squeezing and pulling and slapping. Not like the combination paddling and hand job she likes so much. They scare me in terms of rewriting our relationship, and I like things about where they are.
1) What if she gets a Humbler? The device to isolate and squeeze a man’s balls. I worry that if she looks at Fm porn online, she will see one of those, or one of those plastic vices that crush men’s balls. I think she would absolutely love to put my balls in a vice and giggle and squeeze and keep me in agony while she is orally serviced. I get so much ball squeezing and slapping now, I don’t really want it increased an order of magnitude.
2) I fear I will orgasm from her Strap On. If you only fantasize about getting pegged, let me tell you something. It is not the Pure Pleasure as described in porn. It is an amazingly complex set of sensations and emotions. It is a mix of so many things. Each hard, deep thrust is like a punch in the guts. Like a small uppercut to very tender flesh. All the strength leaves me, and I don’t think I could even stand up when she gets going. Not exactly exhaustion or a need to sleep, but an overwhelming feeling of taxation, like I had just lifted the most weight I can lift 10 times, and now I am empty. And there is a fair amount of pleasure, as the vibrating hard rubber dildo strokes my prostate. Hot flashes. Too weak to lift my body, too much pain, too much pleasure. I have to just crouch there whimpering and panting and dripping.
Most of the men you see getting pegged in porn are kneeling or over a bench or in a harness. It’s because they are too weak to stand on their own. There is an existential reason for all the apparatus.
So what would happen if I actually drifted over the edge and had an orgasm from Her Royal Harness? She loves to fuck me with that thing. She loves the total domination of pounding me before receiving her licking and massage. If the thing she likes best suddenly starts to work more for both of us; she will want to do nothing else. I don’t think I want to give up all the other things we do, but I think she would. And she would want to extend that outside the bedroom to a casual dominance all the time. I’m already fighting that about having my balls squeezed 20 times a day.
3) Her friends probably know everything we do. Two times friends of hers have teased me about little things. At a Halloween party last year, a group of us were eating Fake Eye Balls, and her best friend said to me, “it can’t be worse than when you’re licking <name redacted> ass.” Followed by laughing. This woman is very attractive, and I’ve heard from my wife that she is very unsatisfied with her boyfriend and their sex life. Clearly they have discussed our sex life. Also, at a party at my house, when she was drunk she asked me, “are you wearing your ball pulling weights tonight?”
My wife has asked me dozens of times if I would like to have my dick sucked while I’m getting pegged. She brings it up again and again. I think the two of them have discussed having a Femdom Party with me as the victim / Lucky Winner, depending on how you look at it.
But my wife is all I can handle now. I’m getting more paddling, ball crushing, face sitting and strapon than I can really handle as it is. My wife would like to work on my balls and paddle me every day. And I don’t want to break up another couple by becoming the oral servant of another Asian Girl or two.
It sounds great until you realize how much that could change, and I’m happy where I am. If it could be a completely isolated event, divorced from The World, I would tell my wife to peg me until I pass out with my face in her friend from behind. But nothing is so isolated, and it would probably end up destroying my marriage to my Asian Dominatrix.
Just US please. And don’t show your girlfriends your strap on. I’m begging you.
8 months ago